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Buckled up on velvet seats
Sceneries were passing by
Not so different from our HELL...
Not so different from our HOME...
ᴵᶰ ᴴᵉˡˡ ʷᵉ ᴸᶤᵛᵉ˒ ᴸᵃᵐᵉᶰᵗ ᵇʸ ᴹᶤˡᶤ & ᴹᵞᵀᴴ ᴬᴺᴰ ᴿᴼᴵᴰ
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Short day today, given my insomnia chewed through most of it. About to do my usually routine call to my parents because they freak out if I don't call them every other day or so, LOL. I just tend to procrastinate it because I have to put up a front around them. Mmm... Tomorrow I should mail off Ingo's gift box and cards for Mother's Day. I should also get on doing my laundry, gave myself a break today if only because of my insomnia episode. Today was wasted! But that's alright. I have to forgive myself more. It's been pretty quiet, but I'm glad, I'm an introvert so too much activity makes my brain buzz and exhausts me. I'm going to try looking at therapy options at least by the end of this week if not the start of the next, I'm ready to heal and get my life in order.
A friend of mine invited me to her wedding next year, which is gonna be fun, especially cause some other friends of mine are going, so I am a bit excited about it-- but it's also around the time I'm flying to go see Ingo, so I'll have to do some schedule dancing a bit. Lately I've been...trying to find that moderation between activity and no activity that works best for my health, both physical and mental. I think it'll be easier to find once I get some therapy going, or so I hope...crossing fingers...
I also want to get back to watching anime! I need to finish Vivy! It's sooooo good... I love anime that make me feel things, and Vivy is definitely one of them. I've always been a HUGE fan of those plotlines about the threshold between AI and humanity, can you tell I grew up with Ghost in the Shell? LOL. There's no reason why, they've just always been my bread and butter.
Speaking of, did you know in the early days of B/W the JP community often theorized Emmet was an AI for Ingo? LOL. It was good stuff.
I rarely watch anime by myself these days, like unless someone is watching it with me I usually fail to actually look at it, even if I'm interested in it. I think it's because I LOVE discussing them, I like watching a lot of anime that are really 'deep' and have a lot of symbolic meanings, so I guess if I can't really discuss it with friends its hard for me to watch stuff myself.
Another newer one I've recently enjoyed was EIGHTY-SIX, holy shit, I'm going to be 10000% honest, I've been watching anime since I was like 6, so I'm super jaded to a lot of tropes and plotlines, but EIGHTY-SIX really took me by surprise (plus, Hiroyuki Sawano did the OST??? he always makes bangers). I'm no stranger to roleplay, and I also just love anime that inspires roleplays or fanfics I can write.
I used to be super active in tumblr rp back in my highschool years LOOOOL...
But to be honest, I've avoided talking about general anime in the threads here solely because I'm pretty hard to impress when it comes to anime...and I don't want to come sounding like a negative hipster. Of course I do like some 'main stream' (well now, old main stream--) stuff too, but it's hard for me to get into anime that's 'popular' unless I get into it before it blows up. I don't know why but it's always hard to rope me into watching stuff that everyone watches unless I watch it before that happens.
I'd make an anime review blog but I'd sound so silly LOOOL...
Ingo is raiding hardcore tonight, so I'm left to my own devices and I can't really decide what I want to do...Decision paralysis!! At least I'm never bored!!
Mmm... gonna sound so old, but it's good to see so many people younger than me having nice lives here, it makes me really happy to see. To be super honest, I've always been hesitant to make friends younger than my usual age group because I want them to live such great lives, and I'm scared exposing them to my disorders and well, 'broken pieces' might hinder that, I'm of the belief adulthood should be put off as long as possible, since I had to grow up pretty fast. But, I guess it's okay, so long as they don't mind what a fragile existence I am. I want to have the strength they have.
Aaaah... I want more Pokemon plushies too... but I can't make a good excuse to fit more in my room! LOL, they're so expensive too...
Ah, at any rate, I guess I should call my parents now. Thanks for boarding, as always!
Buckled up on velvet seats
Sceneries were passing by
Not so different from our HELL...
Not so different from our HOME...
ᴵᶰ ᴴᵉˡˡ ʷᵉ ᴸᶤᵛᵉ˒ ᴸᵃᵐᵉᶰᵗ ᵇʸ ᴹᶤˡᶤ & ᴹᵞᵀᴴ ᴬᴺᴰ ᴿᴼᴵᴰ
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Short day today, given my insomnia chewed through most of it. About to do my usually routine call to my parents because they freak out if I don't call them every other day or so, LOL. I just tend to procrastinate it because I have to put up a front around them. Mmm... Tomorrow I should mail off Ingo's gift box and cards for Mother's Day. I should also get on doing my laundry, gave myself a break today if only because of my insomnia episode. Today was wasted! But that's alright. I have to forgive myself more. It's been pretty quiet, but I'm glad, I'm an introvert so too much activity makes my brain buzz and exhausts me. I'm going to try looking at therapy options at least by the end of this week if not the start of the next, I'm ready to heal and get my life in order.
A friend of mine invited me to her wedding next year, which is gonna be fun, especially cause some other friends of mine are going, so I am a bit excited about it-- but it's also around the time I'm flying to go see Ingo, so I'll have to do some schedule dancing a bit. Lately I've been...trying to find that moderation between activity and no activity that works best for my health, both physical and mental. I think it'll be easier to find once I get some therapy going, or so I hope...crossing fingers...
I also want to get back to watching anime! I need to finish Vivy! It's sooooo good... I love anime that make me feel things, and Vivy is definitely one of them. I've always been a HUGE fan of those plotlines about the threshold between AI and humanity, can you tell I grew up with Ghost in the Shell? LOL. There's no reason why, they've just always been my bread and butter.
Speaking of, did you know in the early days of B/W the JP community often theorized Emmet was an AI for Ingo? LOL. It was good stuff.
I rarely watch anime by myself these days, like unless someone is watching it with me I usually fail to actually look at it, even if I'm interested in it. I think it's because I LOVE discussing them, I like watching a lot of anime that are really 'deep' and have a lot of symbolic meanings, so I guess if I can't really discuss it with friends its hard for me to watch stuff myself.
Another newer one I've recently enjoyed was EIGHTY-SIX, holy shit, I'm going to be 10000% honest, I've been watching anime since I was like 6, so I'm super jaded to a lot of tropes and plotlines, but EIGHTY-SIX really took me by surprise (plus, Hiroyuki Sawano did the OST??? he always makes bangers). I'm no stranger to roleplay, and I also just love anime that inspires roleplays or fanfics I can write.
I used to be super active in tumblr rp back in my highschool years LOOOOL...
But to be honest, I've avoided talking about general anime in the threads here solely because I'm pretty hard to impress when it comes to anime...and I don't want to come sounding like a negative hipster. Of course I do like some 'main stream' (well now, old main stream--) stuff too, but it's hard for me to get into anime that's 'popular' unless I get into it before it blows up. I don't know why but it's always hard to rope me into watching stuff that everyone watches unless I watch it before that happens.
I'd make an anime review blog but I'd sound so silly LOOOL...
Ingo is raiding hardcore tonight, so I'm left to my own devices and I can't really decide what I want to do...Decision paralysis!! At least I'm never bored!!
Mmm... gonna sound so old, but it's good to see so many people younger than me having nice lives here, it makes me really happy to see. To be super honest, I've always been hesitant to make friends younger than my usual age group because I want them to live such great lives, and I'm scared exposing them to my disorders and well, 'broken pieces' might hinder that, I'm of the belief adulthood should be put off as long as possible, since I had to grow up pretty fast. But, I guess it's okay, so long as they don't mind what a fragile existence I am. I want to have the strength they have.
Aaaah... I want more Pokemon plushies too... but I can't make a good excuse to fit more in my room! LOL, they're so expensive too...
Ah, at any rate, I guess I should call my parents now. Thanks for boarding, as always!