hey, wasn't really sure about doing this because i can understand never wanting to hear from me again, but i am very genuinely sorry for what i did eight years ago. and i'm also sorry for dragging up old memories; don't know how this is going to be received, maybe it would've been better just to let it drift away and be forgotten about, but i don't think i ever actually directly apologized. which is some bare minimum shit. you deserve that. if there's anything productive i can do now to make amends, i will absolutely try my best. i hope things are going well for you these days (despite the plague)