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Time to be a supportive Subway Master like I was meant to be!As for me, I'm unfortunately feeling... below average. Mostly just tired, and very, very self-conscious lately. It's why I haven't had anything to write about here for so long — half of me has nothing to say, the other half doesn't really want to say anything at all. At least it comes and goes; I just wish it would go a little bit more often and for longer periods of time lol. I'd like to get back to doing the things I enjoy and enjoying them, but... right now, all I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep.
I understand feeling this way all too well… And I wish I could keep you from those cloudy days, Oki, but I know they are inevitable in life. I will say though, that you are much more than you think you are, in general and to those around you. Having you as a friend is a gift, and I’m not just saying that because you put up with my silly little antics (even if that is ONE reason…) Self consciousness sucks, it’s something I’m still learning to battle to this day, (and something my therapist told me to work on…).
But whether you learn to overcome it slowly or not, I can almost guarantee that those grey feeling days WILL roll in less and less frequently as you keep moving forward. You can do it. I know I’m not saying much given my own mental health but, well…
My anxious ass wouldn’t find the courage to bug just anyone, you are a very special friend and I believe in your strength to overcome it bit by bit.
Congratulations again on your much deserved promotion, but don’t forget to take it easy for yourself too, okay? Many of us love you! My train doors are always open if you need it.
I hope the airing episode was everything you wanted too!