Neil was lying down. He went a little far out. He picked somewhere outside to rest because he got used to it. He couldn't go to sleep. Something was lingering in his head. He was thinking about what actually happened in the month he forgot. He remembered at the end of that month that he had Nexus and Void. He had a power lust just before that. It was also the month the zombies came. He was desperately trying to remember what had really happened. Images were flipping through his head. He was really happy, unlike what he could call happy now. He met a girl he liked, him kissing that girl, a mysterious man offering him Nexus and Void, and the last thing he could see was him walking away with Nexus and Void and leaving that particular girl on the ground behind, leaving her for dead. Neil had finally realized what he had done. He was a monster , and he would hurt his friends for power. He had already done it to someone who was than a friend to him. He would have to stop himself before that would happen. Neil sat up. He hadn't thought about power that way since he got rid of Nexus and Void, but he wasn't going to risk it. Picking up his gun, he loaded it with a bullet, and pointed it toward his temple. "I'm sorry," Neil said with a sob.