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Smallest update, my RLS has been really bad today so I didn't achieve anything I wanted to uwaa. But my silly little Deoxys plush arrived today! Been toting him around because he's sooo huggable and like a weighted blanket, it's helping me a lot.
I don't want to turn this into a rant or anything, but I was pondering today about how easily/badly my body seems to react to stress. I've been (wo)manning subway mastering? the house myself for almost two weeks now because my aunt has been on vacation in Italy. It's not too bad, my chores are a bit more than usual but nothing world ending of course. LOL. The hardest part actually is my paranoia spiking real bad, paranoia over really neurotic and farfetched stuff-- the usual drill (I keep panicking thinking that something will go wrong or that I'm going to be killed or something. Insane stuff like that).
Today one of the cats was being a little mischievous and knocking stuff over in the house and making a bunch of noise, and I didn't realize it was him at first and it really scared me, embarrassingly enough. This whole ordeal made my RLS flare up immensely, and it became impossible to rest after I had already forgotten my medication. The doorbell rang soon after though, and it turned out to be the arrival of my Deoxys plush I ordered! LMAO (someone was selling him for 35 dollars can u believe it...) Gonna sound cheesy but this plush is like a weighted blanket, which is something I've kind of put off investing but need for a condition like mine, so it helped ease me a lot. I think this little guy is gonna be pretty important to my stress process going forward!
But it really got me thinking how much I really don't like how much I genetically inherited handicaps. It kinda really sucks but that's life. I guess as I'm getting older it's becoming more apparent and it's been kinda tricky and difficult to come to terms with how much the mere feeling of stress goes against my body. It's a bit discouraging. I always want to do way more than I am but I'm so hindered by the flesh. Hopefully Deoxys will provide some comfort at least.
On another note, I've been roleplaying a Volo and Emmet scenario with a close friend of mine, and it's been fantastic LMAO.
I'll finish this game of catchup eventually (I even gotta finish the teal mask dlc still)... at least rp always inspires me. Gotta finish stuff fr!!
Today one of the cats was being a little mischievous and knocking stuff over in the house and making a bunch of noise, and I didn't realize it was him at first and it really scared me, embarrassingly enough. This whole ordeal made my RLS flare up immensely, and it became impossible to rest after I had already forgotten my medication. The doorbell rang soon after though, and it turned out to be the arrival of my Deoxys plush I ordered! LMAO (someone was selling him for 35 dollars can u believe it...) Gonna sound cheesy but this plush is like a weighted blanket, which is something I've kind of put off investing but need for a condition like mine, so it helped ease me a lot. I think this little guy is gonna be pretty important to my stress process going forward!
But it really got me thinking how much I really don't like how much I genetically inherited handicaps. It kinda really sucks but that's life. I guess as I'm getting older it's becoming more apparent and it's been kinda tricky and difficult to come to terms with how much the mere feeling of stress goes against my body. It's a bit discouraging. I always want to do way more than I am but I'm so hindered by the flesh. Hopefully Deoxys will provide some comfort at least.
On another note, I've been roleplaying a Volo and Emmet scenario with a close friend of mine, and it's been fantastic LMAO.
I'll finish this game of catchup eventually (I even gotta finish the teal mask dlc still)... at least rp always inspires me. Gotta finish stuff fr!!